The title of this post says it all!! I have been battling some pretty trying symptoms for nearly four months now. Day after day we have waited for a reason for feeling this way. I have had a battery of tests, and on one day I literally had 14 vials of blood drawn. Monday, I finally got an answer. My doctor has told me I have MS. I knew in my mind that this is what it would be, but hearing that, and listening to his findings really made it sink in for me. Now, we figure out where to go from here.
The first thing that I have thought about since hearing that from my doctor, is what is going to change in my life. I coach high school Volleyball and middle school Cheer. My Volleyball season is winding down and I have already made the decision to not coach next year and Cheer was a one year deal from the beginning. It hurts to have to give up things that you enjoy and take pride in, but I feel that I want to reserve my energy for teaching and for my family. Everyone who knows me, knows that I live religiously by my "MomAgenda" date book, so I looked back and having MS is not on the agenda!! I don't have time for this! That is what I want to scream at the top of my lungs.
MS is a disease that slows you down. I am a person who only has one gear and that is high gear. Try telling someone who hits the ground running everyday and doesn't stop until she falls into bed that she has to slow down. It is very frustrating.
I created this blog to vent my feelings and to help friends and family stay informed about what is going on. This Friday, I will see a Retina specialist. I apparently have some problems with my eyes that are part of MS. Tuesday, I will have another MRI and Thursday I will see the Doctor again. He has mentioned starting a very potent steriod treatment then. Right now we just need prayers!! That is what is going to get us through this tough disease.
I am thankful to have a wonderful family and great friends to help me out and keep me up when I need it!
